mASF post by "TheRoyalFlush"
posted on: mASF forum: General Discussion newsgroup, July 7, 2005It’s been awhile since I posted last. I’ve been in the game about a year. At
first I couldn’t see how people like TD would say it’s such a long hard road I
was getting instant results, now I am starting to see what they are talking
about. Damn, how hard really is this? Today I was reminded of how much afc is
really still in me, and it hurt.. BAD, but more on that later.
I am currently at a level where its sort of I guess like a crossroads like I
don’t know what to do to boost my game to the next level, I have suspicion
(thanks to listening to Pink Floyds THE WALL for making me think of this ) I
need to fully break down my emotional walls or in other words the tragic
COMFORT ZONES. But man is it painful, I tried everything NLP, hypnosis, but
they don’t fully help the problem. I must take charge and shatter these
barriers, and too think I thought I was really getting good. But throwing
yourself into these situations to get the AFC out of me, wont that add more bad
experiences under my belt or should I do it in a subjective manner? I just
don’t want to bring back old anchors when I have a failure and make myself
think I’m becoming AFC again, its scary when you have come this far.
I remember back in the 7th grade I had a huge oneitiscrush her name was
Melissa, and I would always go over her house and bother her and she called me
a stalker. But it was only a childhood crush, now I compare the ultimate AFC
me to that experience. But tonight I had a flash back by yet another Melissa
telling me I was a stalker, wow, it hurt. Especially since I tried so hard not
to be needy around her, but thing was I actually liked her, out of all the
other girls I met this year she would be the one I would pick as my gf and she
ends up hating me. And I barely ever saw or called her yet somehow I was
labeled as a stalker? What was scary was the context of the situation was
exactly like it was back in 7th and I literally switched back into my afc self
and Ill admit it scared me….
Soo I have too BIG questions that have been floating around …
I want the AFC out of me, what do I do, and how should I frame it so it’s
effective,
And
What is becoming too needy? Like I made sure never to IM this girl first,
barely ever called, visited her only ONCE, barely ever even saw her yet
somehow I came off as needy? So if what was needy what isn’t needy, I mean you
need to communicate to these girls don’t you ?
I apologize for this being long but I need to vent, and suggestions would be
much appreciated!
PS the girl I mention here I did not I repeat DID NOT have Oneitisfor. I had
a big pool of girls I was constantly talking too other then her. I talked to
her least out of all of my female friends.
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