mASF post by "GuessWhosBack"
posted on: mASF forum: Advanced Discussion, February 2, 2005-[ I warn you this article is probably NOT of any value for anyone out here and
thus you shouldn't read it unless you're so bored that you just feel like
reading my sick story. ]-
Dear mASF community and everyone else interested,
a dear friend once pointed me to this site when I told him about my frustrated
2 year LTR that was slowly but surely breaking apart.
Allow me to shortly tell you my about my past and what made me what I am now:
My girlfriend meant everything for me. (I know RTFM - kick me if you can). I
was totally supplicating to my girfriend, hoping not to lose her. Feeling like
I had to keep her at it. Guess what, at that time we haven't had sex for almost
3 weeks. Her rejecting me all the time humiliated me and meant bad whippings
for my self-confidence. Additionally I was really she was cheating on me with
her EX. She's already done twice. I broke up. After a month or something, she
came back regretting what she did and promising never to do such bitter
business again. I rejected her for for the time being but always took her back
later. She indeed had some qualities, at least that's what I was thinking. She
was the best girl I ever had sex with, indeed she was my first time. She was a
crazy girl. We made IT just about anywhere. Park, Garden, forest, car, changing
cubicle, jacuzzi...[your favourite place her]...[insert anything]... That was
just amazing for me. She is that innocent type, you never would put anything
past to her, however she is absolutely cunning and pseudo.
I realized that a change would have to be made if I wanted to conserve at least
a bit of my self-respect. Willing to clutch at straws I read almost any snippet
about seduction and didn't fail to test my undreamed-of skills.
It was the first night out with a friend (serving as my wing ;)) when success
overwhelmed me. I ended up fucking a virgin HBasia6. Damn...what an amazing
feeling. Just on the FIRST night! It was the first time I felt like actively
laying a girl and not getting laid. A "n00b's luck" might be what you're
thinking now. At least it's what I was thinking.
Still having that unique James Bond feeling I was ungently being torn from my
trip when my girlfriend told me she would return to her EX. Instead of facing
it unconcerned and admitting to myself that my LTR and me had no future, I was
mentally devasted and broke out in tears. I haven't cried since I was a child.
I begged her not leave. I wanted her to stay. I told her how much I loved her.
For most of you this might seem totally weird but I really felt that way.
To describe it using LoverBoys words:
"Without her hand holding...
...my dick I thought I couldn't survive."
It was just about that time that Loverboy's posted infamous
"Tribute-To-Sarging-Video" to this board. I found myself in his story (well, at
least the first part). My latter part of my story had yet to be written. And so
it was. Gaining new energy and faith from his video and success story I decided
to continue my enlighting path to PUAdom.
So what's the best way to cure one-itis-again?
A: Beer B: Chain saw
C: FTOW D: A lot of Beer
Correct! In first place thought a combination of A, B and D was helpful,
however continuing my SS studies FTOW turned out to be the remedy prescribed
mostly.
No sooner said than done. I know it's not meant literally. It's meant more
like...uhmmm..blabla?
I'm counting HBasia6 as my first success. So 9 more to go. (FNOW)
Next party, next success HBbigb00bs7.5. Amazing!!! I take her home. We're
crossing the borders of simply making out. She gives me head. Lies in front of
me spreading her legs, offering her wet pussy. (unconsciously using stylistic
technique of asyndetic tricolon to emphasize the rapid progress of action)
Damn... I'm not used to this. Most times I kinda had to persuade my LTR to do
let me enter her pussy. And now there's this amazing girl lying on my bed,
urging me to fuck her. Guess what... I go and spoil the non existent vibe by
going floppy. It seems like as soon a girl is no challenge anymore she loses
ALL attraction to me. Even to that extent as described above.
Keeping in mind the unfaithful concept of FNOW I fucked her the morning after.
Yehhaa!
I wasn't enjoying it at all. :(
I NEVER would have thought I could say something like that. But I really wasn't
enjoying fucking her. For those who might think the reason might be my age.
Guess. I'm 22.
Carry On! (FEOW)
(2 girls a week, seems like pretty much n00bs luck.)
What follows are 2 weeks without a LR/ONS and just some kiss + #closes. One of
the girl is HBlatina8+. I'm really into her and expecting my ultimate cure. I
lay her and it's just wonderful. She 4 years older than me. A friend who knows
about this adores me being the greatest pimp ever. I'm feeling like nothing can
harm me and just being supreme to everything. Oh I'm afraid my despription and
words just cannot keep up with what I really felt. It's like the sun was
shining out of my ass and I'm filled with pure confidence.
FTOW finally seemed to work! I want to thank anyone who has ever contributed to
ASF and help building this treasure of seduction knowledge.
It was that time when my EX wanted to come back to me. Imagine that LB, what
would you have done?! (I'm really interested in your opinion.) Mhh.. what I
did was the following:
I told her I wouldn't talk to her unless she came naked and brought beer. She
refused but later did as I said. How sick is that? It's just 2 1/2 months ago
that I totally supplicated to her and now this. She told me sick shit (still
being totally undressed) like what was my opinion on why "it didn't work with
us?" and what "were the reasons our relationship broke up?". She was crying.I
fucked her brains out that night, she told me it was her most incredible and
best time ever.
Foolishly thinking I could resist her subtile cunning attempts to re-turn me
into an AFC I took her as my FB. Soon I quitted contact with all of my other
HBs. She asked me if the stories the heard about me being a real pua fucking
plenty HBs were true. I negated in order not to hurt her. With hindsight I
guess I shouldn't have. I was getting more and more AFC. I want to spare the
rest of the story. Looking at me now I'm totally down again. She went back to
her EX AGAIN!! Oh damn... what was that? Short trip to Alice's wonderland.
It really hurts, it's like at the moment I forgot about all of my past success
and just think of her. How is that possible am I such a retarded prick? I mean
I'm noticing my mistakes, yet I cannot undo them! I'm feeling like I want to
turn back the hands of time and start over at the beginning not making any
mistake. On the other hand it might be I'm only suffering from not being
sufficient for her and being rejected by her.
I tried to continue my pua campaign. I do get woman to come home with me,
however I do NOT get any arousal from ANY girl I seduce. It was only just
yesterday when I spent a night with a real gorgeous (big breasted yet thin
chick I have been trying to seduce for weeks). However it turned out she wasn't
as shy as I thought she was. She told me she'd try to rape me if I didn't want
to sleep with her that night. I told her before I'd never sleep with chicks on
the first night (what a lie!!) It's like already stated above, for me most
girls lose attraction as soon as I win the game by making them want to have sex
with me. It's really ironical but it seems like this is a self-evolving
process. The more I unintentionally refuse having sex with woman, the more they
become attracted. It's not like I'm impotent or something it's more psychic -
I just completely lose interest. And nothing will work. It's like I'm a schizo
PUA/AFC (cognitive dissonance). On the one hand I believe I can seduce almost
any woman, but on the other hand there's this blatant realization that I have
failed with the girl I wanted to seduce most (EX LTR). Hopefully time cures,
coz a second time FTOW won't do.
Any suggestions?
Flamers welcome, anything more constructive appreciated.
Carry On!
-[GuessWhosBack aka Pacer]-
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