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My ex-girlfriend and I broke up around this time last year. It was a hard break-up. So much so that I took up drinking. My family disliked the idea of the two of us being together in the first place because they felt she was using me to become a citizen. This girl told me she wanted to marry me on our first date. At the time, I thought my family and friends just didn't understand how "special" our relationship was.
I was a total gentleman with this girl and put up with a lot of shit from her too. Why? I thought I couldn't do any better.
We did shit I am totally disgusted with myself for doing. I held her hand in public, we called each other sickly-sweet pet names, and I always paid for everything. Why? Because I thought I couldn't do better.
She put up pictures of herself today with the man she is living with because she babysits his kids. They were practically making out. Imagine, I was supposed to be her boyfriend and I couldn't ride in the same car with her, but she lives under the same roof as this guy she is with now. He is twice her age, makes a decent living, and, coincidentally, is a citizen. He is also beta and probably easy to control. Much like I was
When I told people my girlfriend lived with her boss, they told me they thought there was something going on between her and this boss. I shrugged it off. What else could I do? I thought I couldn't do any better.
This girl is a "good" girl. Never goes to clubs. Never drank or smoked. Goes to church. Imagine, if a "good" girl can fuck you over like that, just think of what a "bad" girl would do. I fucked myself over, I suppose, by not putting my foot down sooner and telling her to kick dust.
Is it possible to be a successful player and still hate women? My beliefs don't permit me to have sex with women before marriage. However, I want at least five MLTR to put all this shit behind me. I really would appreciate any input on this.
I know I need to change. This has been a fucking wake up call for me and I hope for others too. I will never again be monogamous until marriage.
I will never refer to another woman by anything but the name her parents gave her--no more "baby," "honey," or "angel"--and I expect her to do the same for me. I will never again walk in public holding a girl's hand or pocketbook. If they have an issue, they better have a psychiatrist or someone close to them that they can talk to because I am not solving any problems. I will not buy anymore gifts or pay for dinner for any woman outside of my family. I will never put a woman on a pedestal again. They are inferior, confused children that need to be managed and trained.
Any of you guys that post about winning over that one "special" girl ought to rethink things.
I don't care how "special" you think your girl is. Human nature, a woman's nature more specifically, is a powerful thing and she will fuck you over at any sign of weakness.
My plans for the future:
There is a lot of options out there for you guys with oneitis. I don't care how dumb, ugly, socially inept you think you are. If you believe with your whole heart that you are the man, others will think the same way.
I am absolutely and thoroughly disgusted with women.
We never had sex. We didn't even drive in the same car together because she was afraid that people from our church would think we were having premarital sex. I wasn't ever invited to her house and I was forbidden to call her on her cell. Fucked up, right?
I don't have any clear plans at this point.
I do know I am emotionally and romantically dead to women. I will continue sarging, but only girls
